Is it Me?
I’m not sure what you’re going through right now but I hope it has nothing to do with me.
You can always talk to me if you want..
Liar
Now I finally know why..
It was never about me or my faults. You had the cheek to lie straight to my face..
Imperfection
I’m not perfect. No one is. I didn’t need you to judge me and point out every single flaw of mine. You think you’re so righteous ? I chose to see through your flaws and not because they weren’t apparent.
Now what is this about us being friends? Forget it. You’re not worth it.. I’m not gonna waste my time on you any longer. Go screw yourself..
I take comort in knowing you’re a few thousand miles away and not in my own backyard. Makes it easier to get over you..
Filling the Void
Things have changed since last week and there seems to be an empty space within me. I need to get my mind off her so keeping myself occupied with books is a good start I guess.
Here’s what I’m reading now..
I had a rather lengthy conversation with her. She basically told me what was wrong with me and I hate to say this but she was spot on for the most part. Imagine getting your ego dashed by a girl.. Not fun. Anyway, we cleared the air and I hope everything will be fine now.
An Overdue Update
Had quite an eventful few weeks since my last post so here goes..
I’ve been in a somewhat short Long Distance Relationship (LDR) for the past few months and it came to an abrupt ending just this week. I had the best few months when she was still in Singapore. To be honest I didn’t see it coming; at least not so soon. I envisioned it to last at least a year before either one of us make any decision. It pisses me that she didn’t even give us a chance to talk about things. Not even a phone call.. One email and that’s it! That’s a ridiculously impersonal way to end a very personal relationship. Did I mention that is so uncharacteristic of her.. I’m not sure what has gotten into her but the way she ended our relationship was blunt and definitely not very responsible. Look, use a telephone in future if you have any self-respect.
Now who’s to blame? Me? I’ve never considered settling for a temporary replacement as she’s physically not around. That’s one costly mistake people make when their other half is away. We have a few means of communication but I do admit, it’s not easy with the time difference and all. It’s my belief that there are no rooms for suspicion in a relationship, more so in a long distance relationship. I trusted her when she hung out with her friends back home and now abroad. I don’t wish to create such unnecessary stress..
What about the whole idea that LDR usually will fall apart eventually? I’ve never believed in such negative comment; even when my Bro jokingly mentioned it when I told him about her leaving abroad for studies.
A friend of mine mentioned that she has probably met some guy at school and the need to be instantly gratified caused her to end our LDR. That’s probably the case but I’ll probably never know..
Relationships are hard to begin with and the pressure of having it long distance’s harder. Once again, my Bro has given me the best peice of advice. Here’s what he told me: “Well, it’s tough lah. Most LDR don’t work out. Somemore it’s not like you have been with her for very long. Think of it this way, she’s in such a free land, why would she want to be tied to something back home. Take it easy man, she’s not the only girl around.”
Guess she has a lot of free time now. I wonder how she’ll use it.. Oh, I’m feeling a lot better now after much encouragement from my friends. Time to move on!
Anyway, back home. Army life has been pretty boring. I’m still an OOC which kinda suck. My friends have all moved on and become sergeants. I’m really hoping for my posting to come soon! Having said that, I’ve made a few good friends after being an OOC. We seem to click very well.. And we’re going to see The Yeah Yeah Yeahs in Jan! My nightlife has been quite active as well. Won’t go into detail but let’s just say I’ve had whole lot of fun! =)
I like to keep things private so this is probably the only time I blog about my life.
Wallace & Gromit Google Logo
Saw this on Google UK! Apparently they are commemorating the 20th Anniversary of the franchise.
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